stuck at home!

im here online aihzz....really lost....i really dunno wat to do...i tot it wud b fun after SPM u know all the freedom n stuffs...but wat ive planned as gone dwn the drain....i wanted to takeup languages,shorthand ( atleast i think its useful wen im havin my letures), take up mucis classes, go 2 kl, hang out with frens, n the list goes on....i nvr knew that can never fulfil that!sighz!its terrible!!i always do y xmas shoppingin kl but now?nomore!aihz i dunnolaa...its getting on to my nerves d la..cant stand it anymore!im like dead bored at home!my frens?i dun consider them as frens seriously!
they use me 4 transport n wen they r in trouble they cum n find me!smart huh?aihz idunnola!now im stuck at home with my stupid irritating cousins who r alwis blaming me 4 nth jus bcos i dunwan to lend them my car that doesnt mean anything esp not rude~!they r precisely jus being jealous over me thats all!but y i hav no idea y....
at times i kinda envy their family cos they will go for hols together n stuffs..while me at home this whole yr tru i nvr i repeat I NVR stepped out fr my house at all except 4 tuition classes n sch!imagine that!the reason is that my bro n i r havin major exams n they wan us to study at home!my bro has his psone n he gets to play with it the whole day tru while ive to attend numorous tuition classes n kenot cum onilne at all!!!!it so unfair!!