thinking....

this has been bothering me alot.....i dunno wat can i do to make every1 happy with things.....i cant seem to make ppl happy..they tend to piss me off n ill end up being mad at them.....gosh wat a horrible person am i sighz...wat did i do huh???

tell me i need to know!!!!

this is the time when ireally hate my life

i tried...

ive done my best to do things d....but still people stil blame me aihzzz...is there anything that i can do ??ive change to a new leaf infact a few days ago only! i rather keep a low profile of myself among frens n also family members...i dunno y...hahah jus sumhow wanna change....im stil changing tho..to the better of course 4 me but others might think the other way round..whocares, as long that im satisfied with myself can d....things are jus being very tough for me lately...everythign seems wrong....wat can i do??ntg infact...aihz...i cant jus sit there n do ntg about it rite.....it seems thats the only suloution....

thank god that ive a 2great frens who helped me out all this while...thankz to thier useful advices

aihzzz!!!

another boring day 4 me again!!!it was reasonably ok until i think in the evening when i got a msg fr my fren..she was asking me 4 my add 4 an idotic guy!!!i hate that guy alot seriously!!!but wat can i do right?!ive already blocked him n stuffs but no he stil has to send me msgs n ask his godsis to kacau me??!!!he cant jus leave me alonne!!!jus because that im leading a better life compared to him!!!its not fair isnt it?!

i did ignored him...i couldnt stand him till i asked 4 help...that help is seriously needed...n thankz to my fren..thankz alot!!but till now my dear fren isnt back yet...aihzz..wat to do...im waiting 4 myfren though now..:P

i tried...

thinking....

ive reached to this stage that i think too much til i hav nightmares...its not that i wan to but aihz i dunno.....well, its very dumb tho but stil it scares me....

wen my frens haf probs they cum to me....but when i hav probs they dun bother!wat frens are they?

u know who u r.......

aihzzz!!!

aihz apala...my stupid winamp corrupted now iterpaksa go dl a newer verison.......

so sienzz!!!ntg to do!!!!1

things i've noticed...

lately it has been very strange 4 me things n ppl are now so different....weird huh?

ive been questioning myself a lot lately...hav i change or hav they change?

ive even lost a couple of frens lately...perhaps im jus being too sensitive bout them or wat im not sure...i notice that my close frens haf now all change in to a new person..sum1 that i dont recgonise anymore....then as for all those who are not that close to me, i jus realise that they actually do care bout their surroundings..(",)

im starting to realise that once my close frens jus sumhow used me...aihz idunnola..ironic isnt it? when i change, they say im an alien to them..as 4 now i feel as though im being alienated...

perhaps i myself has change with time oso....mayb..i shud change again i guess....

enjoy life to the fullest!!!

changes in me.....

i use to remember those times when i was in primary...i was terrible....i was a very badtempered person..till now idare not say that ive changed completely but at least its not that bad anymore... i use to throw tantrums at alomost everything but now i cant think more maturely now...

perhaps i was given too much time lately to spend i dunno wat to do with it...so i guess at times i jus sit n think a lil too much :) hahahaz..atleast u can see me smilling more now compared to the last few months...i dunwan to get myself invovled in any relationships now cos as 4 now i feel so free being single...

ive tot it a few weeks back..myex doesnt wanna tok to me..i duneven knwo the reason y he doesnt wan to tok to me..but whocares about him he is my ex!hahahahaz..ill leave everything 2 god to decide 4 me....

im now concentrating more in mystudies hahaz (not studying at the moment but gettnig ready tho) then meet more frens..smile often....hahahaz..i can accept life challenges now compared to last time...i can make my own decision without regretting it..

at times its good that we let things go..wen we let go we will realize that life is too short to worry..no point worrying over lil things..dun let little things bother u...lil things such as relationships, n stuffs...u need to let go...hahahaz..look who is toking...

backstabbers...

i dun understand why r there backstabbers around the world.the main reason we live is to survive....

i was backstabbed many many times before but this hurts me the most!..seriously i didnt go anything wrong but mydear fren doesnt wanan tok to me anymore...whocares??!! idunwan to care anymore....

go ahead say wat they wanna say..im not listening....unless they tell me themselves...u knwo who u are.... aihzz...i dunno la...

its really sth that i dununderstand!and ill never understand..i dununderstand why mus she tell him all the things that ive said regarding him?i didnt do anything wrong seriosuly....all i said was wat i think..but no!she mus tell him!n now ive lost a friend~!!!

i bet that she feels very nice about it since she has a bf to go to n tellhim everythign that i ssaid regarding his best friend!thankz to her man i tell u

thankz bitch~~~!!!!!!

ive never trusted sum1 as much i trust u b4 but now !!!
damnn!screw u la!!!

now i really understand why ur parents dun trust u!u bitch n curse ur parents like wat nia to her bf...all she wans is attention..yah n she argues with her bf like 3times a week n always wanan break up like everytime after they argue...she always tells me that but it NEVER NEVER happens.....

its like a waste of my time advisin u n stuffs...u always tel me that u enjoy being single...but u NEVER NEVER can b SINGLE !!!

i hopr ur reading this....but dunworry im not gonna take revenge on u!!!
i jus wanna make u feel horrible thats all *evil* *evil*

WASTED MY TRUST ON U !!!!!

til then...

well well well it has been sumtime since i updated my blog..hahaz...life has change since i got back fr kl..everything was so so perfect till i met sum1..aihz...lets not tok bout itla...stil havent got over it yet hahaz..
very wel since i came back i think ive change alot i think so..or hav i??hahahaz at times there are things that we shud jus let go rather then hold on to it...who doesnt wanna do so rite?hahahaz..