will things get back to normal??

all this while i thought breaking up was easy. but it turns out more difficult then i thought it would be. yah i moved on. or at least i thought i did. i dont know. im lost seriously lost! n confused!! ergh!! ah i went tru hell for the past erm lets say, 4years?? thankz particularly to someone.. yeah idid.seriously did.. some ppl will jus leave the other party in darkness n move on with life. not knowing that the other side cried n suffered alot..he was emotionless when we broke up.. according to him, its better to break up n he avoiding me so that things will be better.. bu fine at least gimme a reaso not by saying "er, i dunno ler" how long do you wanna run away from the reality sayin that we are not an item anymore?? things were fine when the separation happened..after that i dunno wat happened anymore. i try not to ponder over it because its the past ma. but den again, its not easy lo really..a few times i caught myself offguard thinking about it. n last week when i was drunk i said sth that i should not say..WTF is wrong with me wei!! get over it. i think the "kekokness" is an issue lo. he doesnt admit it tho. today supper 4 e.g. he actually move the candle thing nearer to him so that the thing will block his view from me n vice versa. to me, he is an egoistic, overly sensitive fella!! ish ish ish hate him!hes such a chicken kolot really!!4get it la. so childish!get a life weih!!u think wat??!! ahh!! no point complainin also ma. all i can say is that im overly sensitive also.aihzwell i guess he doesnt like me that much as much as i like him.. after all this shit, all i wan from him is jus be good frens n thats it!!why cant i get that??does this mean that im not totally over him yet?impossible ma i guess dunno ler. ish ish ish headache dee.on the bright side i found a best fren,zm thanx to him i found her. lol