NBTD really..

1. Have you ever fallen asleep in class?
- erm once in f2...then ermm sleepy got la...but usually wont sleep 1 la...

2. Have you ever eaten pork?
- erm i dont eat pork 1...

3. Have you ever vomited in a vehicle?
- yups last timeler...sick ma...

4. Have you ever beaten up a friend?
- erm...gals where got so rough 1..

5. Have you ever slapped ur partner?
- slap??no but i wanna slap someone from my class.

6. Have you ever smoked?
- nope will not n never will

7. Have you ever felt like dying cuz u've
been so
hurt?
- yes..now im experiencing it..

8. Have you ever ridden a horse?
- nah...

9. Have you ever felt as if u are gonna
die cuz ure
too sick?
-yeah...the other day when i couldnt breathe...

10. Have you ever hugged ur crush?
- yeah...not the current 1 tho

11. Have you ever played with fire?
- yea...obviously....nice "toy" to play with...

12. Have you ever cried for the one u
love?
- yea..numerous times tho this yr...

13. Does he or she know about it?
- erm no he doesnt....

14. Have you ever fallen from a bicycle?
- nope..:)

15. Will u die for the one u love?
- erm that depends...

16. Have you ever missed someone so
badly?
- yea....missing that someone now but i dont think he knows

18. Have you ever gotten stones thrown
at u?
-erm nope...

19. Have you ever been unfaithful?
-nahh.....i dont think so..

20. Have you ever gotten pepper in ur
eyes?
- erm...once..last time la...now careful dee la..

21. Have you ever gotten a surprise
present ?
- erm ya...

22. Have you ever been on a diet?
- yup..

23. Have you ever stripped someone
naked?
- erm no...im not a mean person you see..

24. Have you ever taken a picture of
urself?
-duh obviously..

25. Have you ever club till dawn?
- nop...

26. Have you ever been in a lift with
someone who
has body odour?
- erm ya a couple of times...

27. Have you ever been so angry u felt
like killing the person?
- i feel like murdering that person but i dont have the guts to kill tho..

29. Have you ever broken up due to the
existence
of a third party?
- yea...once before....stupid fella...

30. Have you ever wanna commit
suicide?
- erm no...

31. Have you ever challenged ur teacher?
- depends which teacher it it...

32. Have you ever lost ur hp?
- choi! no la of course...

33. Have you ever lost in gambling?
- ya of course...i dont gamble tho

34. Have you ever been told that u are
cute?
- erm ya...*not being perasan tho *

35. Have you ever had a crush?
- yeah still having :P:P

36. Have you ever confessed ur feelings?
- i wan to but i dare not...dare not think of the end results.

37. Have you ever gotten urself into
trouble?
- erm yes n always...most of the time infact

38. Have you ever lied to ur parents?
-nope..i m an angel

39. Have you ever been robbed?
- choi! no la of course

40. Do you really like a guy/girl a lot now?
- yea i like this specific fella alot..:

smiling all the way.....

now i get it when people tell me that their heart is filled with pain but they are smilling as though nothing has happened...honestly i think this is the first time that i manage to do that..i controled my feelings and act so normal...my frens expected me to scream hysterically, cry my heart out or god knows wat i will do when im sad and worse of all is that the news came out so insulting....all i did was jus smile and said as i expected...

things usually wont work out the wat i want things to be...but usually at last it will but not this time..ive already accepted that fact long enough but its just that i dont want to give up cause after such a long period of time that ive spent on it might as well continue with it...

actually today my heart is filled with sorrow that ive never felt before...everything seems raw to me...my friends hope that i can just cry my heart out but the problem is that im now in such a condition when i dont even know how to differentiate between happiness or sadness...to me everything is neutral....perhaps deep down i feel so sore.

at this point of time i think its best i just let the feeling go....i dont want to fall in love anymore dee..this will be the last person ill fall for...i dont want to be hurt all over again...i dont want things like that to happen to me again..i had enough of all this pain and sorrow...does the other party knows?no i dont think so...its all a one sided thing i think...ive been thinking too much about this matter that it is somehow affecting my studies..