i should get started....

ok muet is this sat *shrugs* im afraid of it anyway... aihz speaking my weakest.. oh well hopefully ill get an easy topic on that so i can speak my way tru * prays hard *... i realised that ive been procastinating really... all i did ystdy was reading 2 chapters pf PA den did like 1 question of maths.. ergh!! i should be more disipline really.. erghh.. ppl like those top scorers really work their ass off by wat? taking up STUDY as their hobby.. dont u think thats a lil freaky?? aihz... how nice if i can be like them.. oh well im trying hard tho...

ive no choice really less den 6 mths before my trials... erghh less den 20 days for my mid year.. shouldnt i freak out now.. even those playful ones in class are paying attention n questioning teachers if they dunno anything n also doing their assignments...freaky huh?? whilst me on the other hand is still being relaxed n getting TOO lil done.. ergh!!!when will i change!?? darn... ive been given lectures from aunts n parents oh how to study.. well im not working hard enough n they are expecting too much from me... wat can i say really but to put in everything by working my ass off studying till late everyday n try to pay attention in school.. ergh sch is boring as in certain subjects really.. the teachers will like bore u out eventually after lets say 20mins or less?? depending on the situation of the class..

i think i better stop crapping all my thoughts down now... n continue with my work...

things to be done by today
- chapter 1-3 of chemistry.. (organic )
- chapter 1-5 of PA
- maths homework... ( both 1 n 2 )

hopefully i ll carry them out as planned.. if not im sure to die!!!
ergh!!! * keeping fingers crossed *

silly me..

ahah finally ive regained my senses that liking someone for such a long time is really a waste of time...ahaha...thankz to all the depression that have sort of made me puled myself up to realise how silly ive been all these years!!why should i do so ive no idea...making my feelings clear is such a great thing..ive decided to drop that whole lot of burden down reallythen 4 once i got so so so depressed n finally i manage to pick myself up today n realise wat ive done is wrong..so ive made up my mind ive decided to 4get about the feeling n make way 4 a brighter future!
i dont know why im so positive suddenly that really shocks me.really ahaha dunnola perhaps im jus an empty soul now for me also to realised how silly ive been all these years!ahahaha so so happy now wanna 4 get about everything n move on with mylife .so happy with it ahhaha dunno why also ...

i should also change.. im such a bad person.. ahaha there fore i should change...ahahaha!!

oh well my exams are like jus around the corner tho is 1 mth away from my mid year.. oh bother ive a whole lot of stuffs to cramp into my head..erghh i don like but wat to do i gotta do it also.. ahaha.. well well.. jus forget about the past n strive hard towards the future ler... ahahaahaha this is a whole bunch of crap since the last time i blogged.. ahahaha